January 11, 12

January 11
The day was ok. Though I do remember feeling frustrated and stuff. I planned on sleeping around 10PM but damn home works keep me from doing so. So instead, I slept at 11PM and didn't write this blog.
So, what happened today? Today is when our class picture gets taken, and club picture, and an extra Citadel picture for the members. Thanks to this, most of the hours in the afternoon got 'stolen.' We were unable to continue with our Values, and English too. Fuck I have to bring that laptop again. Curses. In Math recitation I did well. I'm happy I got the first question right. Also, I feel like s/he's a bit closer to me than last time, or maybe it's because I have been ignoring him/her unlike now. Don't understand? Codename dude. That's what paranoia do. But s/he's his/hers. How can I own him? And besides, his/her belongings had already stated "I'm not yours" or something like that. So, I guess I should just ditch this whatever fluttery thing I feel inside when s/he smiles or laughs or just do things. But it never gets off.
Don't worry, just one and a half more years... It'll be over.
I HOPE. I want it done quick. I hate this feeling. Make me feel it when I have a job. Not now. So I guess puberty's not done with me? I thought had ended two years ago? Such a retard.
Also, got "slammed" in our I.P. defense. Yeah, we're awesome like that. No product, dull presentation, and sloppy. I just hope I can do better next time.
I guess that's all.

January 12
Ok, the Today.
Talked about "swagger" for a bit in T.L.E. I remembered Sir said something like "it's no use boasting about your 98% grade, especially with someone higher than you do. That person who got a higher grade than you do didn't even boast his/hers, so why should you?" Come to think of it, I had something like that in my blog, and it's Math, too (he also said something that the subject was Math were you get 98%). Is he reading this? Sir, are you? Please comment. I would greatly appreciate it. But I am certain it is not him. Not everyone knows my blog, nor is this guy connected with my Facebook account for its post to get published there and be seen. He also went like "At your age right now, as a Third year student who greatly depends on his/her parents, do you have any right to be boastful? To be a swagger?" I whispered to myself yes. Why? I have my pride to take with me. I live life my way, and I believe no one has the right to tell me how to lead it. Warn me and make me regret or prove you wrong, Tell me no and I'll show you it's ok. We have our ways, I have mine. Yes I know my pride is broken, but these people in my head keeps me alive and well. They are my souls, my hearts, my minds, and everything else in me. Maybe someday I'll talk to you about them. My music, too.
I thought we were finished with the I.P. defense but Sir told us otherwise because we were unable to show a product yesterday. I'm not sure if we're still going to do it tomorrow. Somewhat makes me nervous.
Then Pananayam in Filipino. Pananayam, is interview in English I think. I still have not thought of questions, or even a subject to make thinking up of questions easier. Damn it, I have to think of one (or five) soon or I'll have no home work for tomorrow.
Continuation of a group's report in Renaissance in A.P. for today. Then lunch. Different table.
Values. The Price of Corruption. Damn government and their corruption. If only they were never corrupt, maybe Philippines had already soared high, and maybe them people living in poverty will have better lives. But fvck the government. If ever I got the chance, or if ever I can become, I'll be an assassin aiming to kill any, I mean ANY politician or government official being corrupt. And burn their homes. I'll give them three tries. Then form the modern Brotherhood. Then travel to Turkey and*shot------ This is not assasson's creed. I know that. I am serious about the assassin part. As for the brotherhood, if there are people willing to join, then so be it.
Then FINALLY, report in English. No more laptop to bring to school! Finally I get to bring my file case.
Then Math. I felt alive there. I recited and took the risk, uncertain of what I should answer in the board. Oh God thank you. I got it right. That's three 90's I think, or maybe some high grade over there for the recitation. Thank you, thank you very much.

Stayed for a while, bought Hershey Drops flavored shake. Kumugs, nice name. Then Assassin's Creed: Brotherhood for a while as I can't think of a plot for the speech script. Then went inside and used the Neo laptop with plans of using the guitar in mind but was unable due to time. Maybe tomorrow. I want to learn Oh well, Oh well by Mayday Parade and also try my hand at learning their songs by ear. Wish me luck. I forgot my Mom threw away our ball for volleyball. I wish she shouldn't have done it, now I have to find someone who can lend me one. Josea intends to practice with me, so yeah. She felt guilty not playing for the Blue team n basketball girls. So she plans on practicing this coming Saturday, with me. I just hope somebody will lend me, or us. And then there's this continuing to paint the mural art this Saturday.... So... *le shrugs*

Anyway, I guess that's all I have to say for today.
I think it's better if I write post in their exact date rather than a day late or something.
Good night.